I think more than anything, if I can find a way to move on with my life...things will get better. The problem is that it is hard to move on when final divorce judgement is being held up. Not by me, by the way. And there is such bitterness. My bitterness is reactionary. If I was treated with something resembling respect, we wouldn't have the issues that we have. But I can't control that.
There is one aspect that is making moving on so hard. My child. She has been thrust in the middle of this anger. I have done everything that I can to not have her in the middle, but I failed. Until things get resolved, I have removed myself from the equation. Meaning, I don't call and I don't try to set up time to see her. There is a huge reason for that which I will not go into here. See first post for reason. I am in an impossible situation dealing with people that say one thing then do something else. Making me nuts.
Oh yeah...the trying to move on thing. I sent an email out to a woman through a dating website. Haven't met her in person, but you never know.
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